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I have decided to do something this November that I have been wanting to do for years. I have finally decided to take the plunge and do NaNoWriMo. If you’re not a writer you’re probably thinking I accidentally sat on my keyboard or if you’re English, you probably think that’s a Welsh word. Both are wrong, NaNoWriMo is an abbreviation of National Novel Writing Month. It began in America so is now actually international, but aside from that, the title is pretty self-explanatory. For the month of November, people pledge to write an entire novel (defined as 50,000 words). Most people try to write 2,000 words so that they have a little bit of manoeuvre room.

Whenever I think about what I am really about to attempt, I begin to wonder how the heck I am going to manage it, but I am absolutely determined to do this. I used to write everyday simply because I love it, and although I am still writing non-fiction regularly for this blog and my column, I really miss writing fiction. I just can’t seem to find the motivation for fiction anymore. As NaNoWriMo founder Chris Baty writes in No Plot? No Problem!,’the biggest thing separating people from their artistic ambitions is not a lack of talent. It’s the lack of a deadline.’ I don’t think my novel will be amazing, in fact most participators never actually read the novel they wrote. The reason I am doing this challenge is because I need to prove to myself that I can actually write everyday and produce a novel on a deadline, i.e. that I might actually have what it takes to be a writer.

I am not going to this blind-sided. I am making some preparations, I don’t just mean as in planning my novel and working on characters. I am reading Chris Baty’s book which I mentioned, reading lots of articles online and watching the NaNoWriMo youTube videos. I am planning to split my 2,000 daily words into either three or four writing sessions. I did a quick time check yesterday and it should take me about 15-20 minutes to write five hundred words, although this obviously depends on how well I get into the writing flow. Yes writer’s flow an actual thing, no matter how cheesy it sounds. I am hoping that by 9.30am each day I should have at least five hundred words down.

One of the great things about being in university is that I can also be apart of the NaNoWriMo group. I can make friends and get motivation and support. No one wants to be the first one in the group to quit…

I know this is still going to be a huge challenge but this is something I really want to achieve. I keep picturing how I will feel come the 1st December when despite my tiredness I will have written my first novel. I was talking to Paul earlier about what my undertaking this challenge will mean for him, and I realised quite how much I want to do this. If I end up giving up, you can expect one very unhappy post from me. So the less posts you see from me for the next month, the better you know my novel will be going. I’m off to make a visual board for my novel!

Love Katie x

Are any of you thinking of doing Nanowrimo too?


“Having a black dog in your life isn’t so much about feeling sad, down or blue, but feeling devoid of feeling all together.”

The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are poor in spirit. (Psalm 34:18)

So not fear, for I am with you;

do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you;

I will uphold you with my righteous hand. (Isaiah 41:10)

Love Katie x

With thanks to the friend who shared this with me.


At the beginning of the trail you had to take a photo of yourself to identify your film, this is a copy of mine and Paul’s. Sorry the quality isn’t great.

When Paul and I returned home from honeymoon, there was one over-riding thing I was certain I wanted to do- lots and lots of new things. While stuck on the sofa during that week and a half I had a lot of time to think, and I knew that this year I wanted us not to just do the same things we did the year before. While we absolutely loved and got so much out of our cinema membership, that time has passed now. We still love going to the cinema but we don’t have the time (and I don’t have the energy) to go as often as we used to, and we’d rather do something more sociable these days.

The societies fair seemed a great place to start in finding a new hobby, we found the perfect match in the photography society. We have a good digital camera but we don’t have a swanky SLR and I doubt either of us will become photographers (although you never know), but it is something we can do together and have fun. We would both enjoy learning more about photography and developing new skills, especially when it comes to using the darkroom so we both joined up. So far we’ve thoroughly enjoyed all of the meetings/activities.

A fortnight ago we did a photo trail which involved using a disposable camera to take photos on seven themes. Once the photos were developed, they were judged and prizes handed out for the best in each theme. We decided to work on one camera together because we thought it would be easiest and make it more of a joint activity. P and I really enjoyed trekking around town, finding ways to creatively interpret the themes. We both said we would love to do it again, and it really opened up our mind to think about taking more creative photos. I’m seeing opportunities everywhere now.

It was such a beautiful day to take photos. This is just a quick snap I took of Cardiff Castle on my phone but the sky looks so blue in it.

We got our photos back last weekend, and unfortunately a lot of them didn’t come out (bad flash) but the ones which did come out we were quite proud of. On the day P was content to just come up with ideas and let me do all the photo taking, but I managed to persuade him to take a couple. The day of the social and prize-giving P wasn’t feeling too good at all, so it was doubly good when he came first in one of the categories. It was great that we worked together on the photos and shared ideas, but it was a big confidence boost for him that it was his photo which actually won. Of course he tried to share the credit (and the prize) with me because he’s always so kind, but I think the glory belongs to him and I am very proud of him. Needless to say that brought a smile to his face.

Even though the photo trail wasn’t an official date afternoon, it was probably the best afternoon we’ve spent together since we’ve been back home as newly weds. We’re building memories together as a couple, learning new skills, and making new friends. What more can a girl ask for from a society?

I’m curious to hear of the best dates you’ve been on, whether with friends or a partner. Please share with me via twitter (@Chronic_Katie) or in the comments box below.

Love Katie x


Driving home for the first time on my new scooter

So something very exciting happened this week…I got a mobility scooter! Last Sunday, on the way home from Church my wheelchair broke. Since we had the money to get a scooter, we took it as a hint to hurry up and spend it. We had been praying for the provision of a scooter, which God did provided (prayer works!) so why wait around? I took Monday off from university to go look for one.

As a side note-We found out from the internet that there are two mobility shops in Canton, which is on the other end of the city from us. We do have a spare wheelchair but the core piece which secures the chair is broken so it’s not very reliable and we were worried it might break if we tried to go so far in it. We contact two of our friends who had cars but they weren’t able to help us out so P and I put a request out on Facebook and Twitter, and I prayed once again. Within ten minutes, someone we know from school offered to help us out. I was completely taken aback because I barely know this person.  I was astonished that someone would go so far out of their way to help us out. This girl is so sweet and kind. After dropping us off, she offered to come back and pick us up if we needed it. Incredible. Not only did this girl help us out, but it also made P and I feel less alone, that when we ask for help, there are people who care.

Anyway, on with the story. When I was “driving” my new scooter home, I just couldn’t believe that I finally had one. For around three years, I have had to be dependent on someone else and now I have my independence back! It feels so incredible. My mind continually races with thoughts about all the things I can do again now.

It’s quite overwhelming, but in a good way. It’s up to me again now to decide when I need to rest and when I should go out. When I commit to do something, I am just committing myself, and not Paul as well, which is great for both of us.

One of the things we discussed in marriage prep lessons was having more individual lives again. We spend nearly all our time together, which we love, but we know it’s also very important for us to have separate lives. Particularly for Paul, he doesn’t spend much time doing something that doesn’t involve either caring for me or for someone else as part of his job, and I think it would be great for him if he started hanging out with guys on his own and did things just for his enjoyment.

Watch this space.

Love Katie x

Zoooooooooom!

p.s. Just in case you don’t follow me on Twitter and were wondering. Unfortunately I didn’t win the Cosmo Lifestyle Blog Award. Big thanks to all of those of you who voted for me and gave me support. I hope you’re not too disappointed in me.


Cover of "The State of Me"

Image source: Amazon

One of my favourite books of all time is The State of M(available in the UK and the USA through Amazon). I am an avid reader, not the sort of person whose favourite book is the single book they’ve ever read, so you know that it’s well worth a read. It is a semi-autobiographical novel about a young woman in the 1980s who becomes ill with the mystery illness M.E. This is around the time my daddy got diagnosed so when I was reading about the hilarious/horrendous things people (including in the medical profession) came out with, I realised exactly what my dad had to face. Things are better now, but the reason that Nasim wrote this book (despite it almost killing her) is because things haven’t changed enough. We both write about our experiences for the same reason, to raise awareness about what living with chronic illnesses is really like.

 

I really would recommend reading it both for a bit of awareness about the condition, but also just because it’s a genuinely good book that I just couldn’t put down. The only health warnings I would put on it is that you need to remember that this is a book of its time so not all the facts are necessarily still true, and also that each patient’s symptoms can vary quite a lot.

 

I am bringing this up now because the author, Nasim Marie Jafry, has posted chapter 15 on her blog Velo Gubbed Legs (you can read it here). This chapter is actually different from the rest of the novel because it comes in the form of Q & As. It is very readable and I urge you to check it out. 

 

In case I haven’t given Nasim quite enough praise, you can also follow her on Twitter. She often tweets about things in the news about M.E./C.F.S. so if you’d like to be a bit more informed then she’s one of the best people to “follow”.

 

Love Katie x

 

p.s. Sadly I wasn’t paid to write this blog post- I just really like this book. Haha.

 


If you’re a regular reader of my blog then you will know that over the summer I was shortlisted for the Cosmopolitan Lifestyle Blog Award. Throughout August I bombarded you with pleas for you to vote for me. I thought it was about time I gave you an update on when the results will be announced.

Firstly, thank you so much to all of you who voted for me. I really do appreciate every single vote and all of the messages of support I received. It sounds cheesy but I still can’t quite believe I was shortlisted out of thousands of blogs and so many professional and interesting blogs in the same category as me. Mainly though, it is fantastic to have got more readers, who I never would have reached otherwise.

I was invited to an awards ceremony on Thursday 4th October, where the results will be announced. Unfortunately I won’t be able to attend because of the improper disabled access. Obviously this is a big disappointment for me. I would have loved to be in the swanky London hotel and make contacts with other writers. There is little point dwelling on spilled  milk though, the event was really the icing on the cake. Paul cheered me up by saying that this wouldn’t be my only chance at an event like this.

I did debate over whether to tell the truth about why I’m not attending the event, I decided it was best to stick to the policy of honesty. In fairness to Cosmo they believed that they did have disabled access and have done all they can to try to resolve the issue. As I’ve said before, I don’t get angry at the person/people who have failed to provide proper access, it’s really not something that crosses your mind until you have been in the position where you are affected (directly or indirectly) by bad or the lack of disabled access. Of course, this rational thought doesn’t completely deplete the disappointment I feel, but it does inspire Paul and I to keep raising awareness to reduce (even completely rid) the times like this so that others won’t have this problem. This is something which needs to change, it’s one of the reasons why people with disabilities and debilitating illnesses remain invisible in our society. The change begins with us taking every opportunity we can to raise awareness. There is a theory which I have a lot of sympathy with, the idea that society disables people because it prevents certain members of that society from having equal access. I won’t go into this too much now, it’s just food for thought, and perhaps I’ll write about it more another time.

Anyway, back to the main point, I am not sure when I will hear about the results but as soon as I know, you will know.

Keep your fingers crossed for me, it would be incredible to get the exposure of winning this award to raise awareness about life with chronic illness.

Love Katie x


Well you’ve probably been wondering where the heck my blog post about my wedding is. The reason there has been a lack of posts on here is that I had a REALLY bad couple of days. Just as I was getting ready to write a post about the progress I’ve made since I began writing this blog, there was a another whack of a “bad patch”.

During these few days I was listening to a preach online from my Church about personal progress. Chris Cooke (senior leader at Freedom Church) talked about the importance of momentum, to keep taking each little step because it is so much harder to begin again once you’ve stopped. I am climbing the hill of recovery into full health and I can’t stop because of a few days.
Yesterday was the first day of lectures and I felt so ill that I just wanted to stay in bed. Those horrid thoughts of just staying in bed forever so that I don’t have to go through the pain and exhaustion came, but I didn’t want to give up my progress. I reminded myself of why I am trying to do my degree, why Paul has given so much so that I can get to university and learn about politics, and I forced myself to go.
I don’t want anyone to misread this as me saying that staying in bed is a weak option and that if everyone who suffered from CFS and Fibromyalgia just pushed themselves they could get out of bed. The trick to recovery from chronic illnesses is to know when to give in and when to push.  I literally didn’t get out of bed, except to go to the toilet on Saturday and Sunday. Those days I needed to stay in bed and rest, my body was in a really bad state and needed a lot of sleep. Even on Monday I still did sleep and rest a lot, but I pushed my body to leave the house for two hours. That’s a smart thing to do when you can feel that your body is ready to begin the fight.
I don’t know whether any of this makes sense to someone who hasn’t suffered from these illnesses, but what I’m trying to say is that I’m in a new phase. I gave my body about four months of rest and now it is ready to begin the steady (and sometimes steep) incline back to health. My daddy was talking to me about this last week (you might remember that my dad too has a lot of health problems) and he reminded me that I won’t glide back into health easily but that I’ll have to fight for it. It’s going to hurt some days, and I’m going to have set backs, but I know that eventually my days where I “win” like yesterday will begin to increase and increase, and the “bad” days will lessen.

I have good reason for this solid conviction of recovery. I have had a lot of prayer and have had two very strong prophecies of health in my future. I know that the people who gave me these prophecies wouldn’t pass on these words from God unless they had real conviction of their truth. Something so personal and sensitive isn’t taken lightly. It can be hard to believe for something like that when you’re in a valley of pain, but faith is seeing beyond your current circumstance and I do believe I will be healed. I don’t think it will be a miraculous healing (although I’m not ruling it out), I think that as I grow into the woman (and Paul grows into the man) God intends me to be, so too will my health be released for the exciting adventure God has for me and my husband.
Cue Eye of the Tiger….

Love Katie x

p.s. If you want the preach I mentioned (which is called The Great Locomotive: Hurtling Along the Edge of Chaos), you listen to it as a podcast here.



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