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I can’t believe Christmas is over for another year, the time has just flown by. Of course my being very beforehand meant the whole affair sort of took me off guard. I did manage to enjoy the day though, and some time with my family. I didn’t get to spend time with the friends that I wanted to unfortunately, but you can’t have everything. I am now safely back in my little flat, with Paul and my kitten Didi. It has been so long that I haven’t even been able to write to you about the little edition to our household.

A photo I took of Didi for our Round Robin letter

A photo I took of Didi for our Round Robin letter

Didi came to me the Friday before my birthday, as a surprise. Paul got her from another family who were no longer able to have her so she was already 19 weeks old. She settled in quickly though, and seems attached to me and P. She follows us all over the house, and likes to be close to one of us all the time. Didi acts crazy (and I mean crazy) part of the time, racing and racing around the room, but she’ll also happily sit in bed with me for hours on end or snuggle up for nap time. The perfect temperament for us.

Didi is black with lots of white dots and strips on her belly. The best part of her fur though is that she has little white socks. So cute. She also likes posing for pictures, and responds to her name as dutifully as a dog. My mood has improved greatly since Didi came to live with us and I don’t feel as lonely anymore, that was exactly P’s plan of course.

The three of us are spending new year’s eve together tomorrow at home. I’m still feeling very fragile health wise, and a little knocked for six after Christmas so anything high energy was off the cards, I might not even stay up until midnight. I’m not a huge fan of new year’s eve, but it seems a bit sad to do nothing so we’re planning on getting some fruity treats, doing a puzzle and watching some films. The good thing about NYE is that you feel as though you have to re-assess your life and the last year. Instead of allowing myself to be depressed by all the things I haven’t been able to do because of my illness, I am going to list all the great and wonderful things that have happened this year and thank God for them.

How are you celebrating NYE?

Love Katie x


 November has very much been an emotional and physical rollacoaster. I feel very lucky to have a fantastic husband and some great friends who were willing to patiently ride it with me.

Regular readers will know that I participated in National Novel Writing Month last month, I am sure you will all be pleased to hear that I completed my novel! I am very proud of my accomplishment, it makes me realise how much I can achieve with my writing with the right amount of dedication. I am very thankful to my friends who sent me messages of encouragement and to my husband who put my laptop in front of me even when I resisted.

It was very difficult for me to write 50,000 words in such a short space of time. ..

This is as far as I have got in writing an update blog post. I am seriously struggling with motivation at the moment. My body is exhausted and every time I do something I have to stay in bed for days on end to recover. That doesn’t exactly inspire me to go places or work hard.

I have so much to be thankful for, the last two weeks in particular have been jam packed with treats, presents and wonderful events, and yet I do not want to get out of bed. I should be on top of the world right now. I don’t know completely whether it’s my body or my depression. I certainly struggle when I do get out of bed, not just struggled, I have to really fight to get up but I’m not doing anything while I’m in bed either. My pain levels are really bad and I’m not sleeping much, but I don’t feel like I want to look after myself at all, I would happily hide away from the world. Perhaps there isn’t one problem, it’s most likely to be a combination of both depression and sickness. Usually I would fight these kinds of emotions and thoughts by throwing myself into social events and university work, but my physical illness is holding me back. What is clear is that I need to push past my physical problems if I want to stay on track with my university course.

Even though I barely began my ‘catch up’ post I wanted to put it up to show you where I am right now. A bit lost and struggling to work on anything, least of all my university work, which I am desperately behind with. I will continue to attempt to force myself out of this though, I know that God is close, and will bring me through this deep valley.

Love Katie x

 



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