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Dependence on God for hope & life

Since I’m struggling to get posts up regularly at the moment, I’ve decided to start shorter posts with you. This is a more manageable way for me to write, and I’m guessing a lot easier for you to read. I regularly read, watch, and listen to things that help me maintain a positive mental attitude and keep the black dog at bay, I thought that you might appreciate me sharing some of the quotes I record in my journal with you. The quote below is from the notes section in the Bible I read*. At the moment I am working my way through the book of Job, a story that is very relevant to this blog, so I’m sure I’ll be sharing another quote or two with you in the next couple of weeks. Whether you’re a Christian or not, the Bible can be both inspiring and comforting. It contains harsh truths, compliments, and motivational quotes we all need to hear, which is why many atheists often turn to it, and have found it useful. This is part of the reason I talk about my faith and share it with you.

Love Katie x

*I read The Life Application Study Bible (NIV version)


This post was dictated by Katie and written by Paul.

When you’re chronically sick, spending day after day in bed, it can feel like you achieve nothing. You feel like you’re fighting just to get through the hours and, as a result, you can fall deeper and deeper into a state of depression. I’ve been in this position, and I know that it can seem impossible to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Eventually, however, I realised that it was a lie that I didn’t achieve anything, I achieve at least something  little every day. I just had to re-assess what an achievement meant to me whilst I was ill, and begin to recognise them. This wasn’t about lowering my expectations, it was about recognising that seemingly smaller achievements were so much harder for me that to do them meant I’d achieved something massive. Recognising your achievements is such an important step in maintaining a healthy state of mind. It’s all about building your self confidence and reinforcing the idea that your life is not meaningless because of your illness.

I found inspiration in another blog called Rise Above Average about how to focus on and remember my daily achievements. The author talks about recording your achievements, big and small, in a book. The idea behind an achievements book is that when you feel like you have no accomplishments, you can look back in your book and realise just how amazing you are, and how much you’re achieving. People naturally forget what they’ve achieved and need reminding. I’ve found it also has a positive spillover- when I see that I achieved something, I’m motivated to do more.

As much as I love to take advantage of any opportunity to begin a new notebook, I found it difficult to keep on top of a new project at the moment. Instead, to make it easier for myself I have been taking photos of things I manage to do each day, and post them on my social media sites (see below for links). This has been much more manageable for  me, it’s something I can do even on my worst days. The activity forces me to focus on the positive aspects of my day, every day. I’ve found it so beneficial to focus on good things, even when my day has been difficult. By sharing my photos with my friends, family and online buddies, I also get encouragement from them, and it’s a way for them to keep updated on how I’m doing. I’m not always the best at keeping on top of it, sometimes I miss days, but on the whole I have kept going with my achievement photos. Perhaps at some point I’ll get them all printed and make a book.

To give you an idea of the kinds of things I photograph, I’ve included some examples below…

Coffee shop date; Reading on my own for the first time in months; Recording & editing a YouTube video; Managing to sit up & start decorating my new Smash book

Coffee shop date; Reading on my own for the first time in months; Recording & editing a YouTube video; Managing to sit up & start decorating my new Smash book

As you can see some of them are small, but every tiny step becomes part of the marathon. It’s about building momentum. Today my achievement might be getting out of bed for five minutes, next month it might just be something truly remarkable.

I really would like to encourage you to begin celebrating your daily achievements or ‘steps’ on your ‘marathon’, whether you’re sick or healthy. If you’d like to get involved in my project, I use the hash tag #CKmarathon (as in Chronically Katie marathon), when I share on social media. Feel free to use it too, so that you can share your achievements and view other peoples too. I get so much encouragement when I share my pictures and people ‘like’ or comment on them, it always brings a smile to my face. I’m sure that the same would be true for you. Of course, it’s more important that you do this for yourself and not other people. You’re biggest fan has to be yourself.

Love Katie x

*If you’d like to read the blog post I mentioned on Rise Above Average, click here*

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Look out for a *NEW* video about creating an achievements book on my YouTube channel soon. It’ll be up as soon as I’m well enough to film.

 


Day one in the Davies (or should that be NaNoWriMo) household, Katie is writing… That was supposed to be said in the Big Brother voice, or at least that’s how it sounded in my head.

My novel has got off to a good start so far. I have managed to bang out 3809 words today and it’s only 7:50pm. This is due largely to the fact that my health is very, very bad today. I know that sounds like an oxymoron, all shall be revealed.

Today is one of those days where I feel like I have lived a week in twelve hours. My health has been up and down all days, some of the time, like now, I feel ok, my legs are aching so I’m stuck in bed, but I am able to write, even though I cannot concentrate on reading or studying. At some points of the day however, I have been desperate to fall asleep because I just felt so sick. I don’t really know how to explain the extreme exhaustion, pain and sickness, except to say that if my mum were near, I would cry like a baby for her to come cuddle me when I feel like that.

I have been alone almost completely all day so to ward off any depression and negative thought cycles, I have just kept my novel on my mind. I haven’t been well enough to write all of the time, but I have been thinking of Ally all day long, meaning that when I can write, I have so much in my mind my fingers can’t type fast enough.

When I woke up this morning, I felt so far away from being able to focus on anything, let alone begin a novel, but I had prepared for this with two age-old writer’s tools:

Morning pages

I have heard many names for this, but essentially I just wrote about something other than what I was working on. Some writers, as I did, write journals to wake up their creative mind. It’s like sport, you can try just running, but you’re more likely to do a lot better if you stretch your muscles and focus your mind on the task ahead.The first thing you write at the beginning of the day is likely to be the worst thing you write that day so it’s a good idea to not put that in your novel.

Music

Background noise, providing it is not too loud can help a writer get into the scene or into their character’s head. I am writing about an angry, hurt, and rejected woman so I flicked through my iPod to find all the music I used to listen to as a teenager when I was feeling that way. This immediately puts me in the right place to think and feel the way Ally does. Certain songs remind us of certain feelings, it’s a good idea to harness this for my writing. On the other hand, if I listen to Ben Howard, I am going to feel calm and happy. I haven’t used it yet, but I also downloaded an the Ambiance app, which has a huge library of different sounds. I am planning to use these for certain scenes. So for example, if my character is taking a country walk, I can create a playlist of various wildlife sounds to help my mind picture what is happening.

 

One of the things I want to do this month is to use my intense novel writing to try out different writing techniques. Today I used journaling to warm up, perhaps I’ll stick with that for about a week before moving on to something different. I am doing the same with where I write. I was able to get out of the house to go to the library to write for an hour today, which was great because I have never tried writing there before. It went well, I was free from distractions and comfy on the new sofas. I’m not sure I’ll be able to get to the library every day for a week but I’ll try going there to write a few times, before moving on to a new venue. Obviously I tried writing in my bed too, but that doesn’t count as an experiment since I always write here (yup I’m there right now). By the end of this month I should have a good idea about my writing habits- where and how I work best.

Have you got any writing techniques or venues you use or have heard of that I could try out?

Love Katie x

P.s. My new blogging buddy Amelia is NaNoWriMo rebel because she is using this month to continue with her memoir about life with cerebral palsy.She is posting the whole thing on her blog day-by-day. I read the first installment today and felt positive I had to share it with you, it is a fantastic first draft. Check it out here.

You can find out more about my novel  and keep up to date with my progress on my NaNoWriMo page.



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